When it comes to the end, of this semester.

It seems to be the last century's when I left my last piece of word from the last post. Well. Mr. Laze has been complimented most of my precious LEISURE time. Just staring at the ceiling wall, rolling around the bed, dumb toying with my furry little Eeyore, other than catching the NEVER-FINISH-LECTURES aka NOTES sessions.

The so-called true university life of a classical student. 


Wait. I am sick of being ordinary. 

So the correct sequence of those boring-like incidents towards others but absolutely the biggest fun of me during this semester were so sweet, and too, left me some remarkable signs in my life. At least, I am not a worm which crawling in between the lines, fed on the flick flack of the pages, and stuffed inside the heavy stack of paper, and finally flying back to home, transformed to a couched potato again, and finally realized, "HUH?! I FINISHED ANOTHER SEMESTER IN U!"


This is 9:49 pm, and a sudden hit of writing sense, and so I left my Molecular Nutrition and Accounting Principle handouts aside, and spent those FIGHTING times to type, to write, and to make sure that I am still alive. I am so sorry to say (I hope my parents won't strangle me to die when they saw this), I was just studying and living like a corpse, without emotions in the eyes, and robotic hand-writing action like those metal toy being set to chop on the PAPER and BALL PEN monster, and ass stuck on the chair, never leave there besides toilet. And I hate them so well.


Opppsss! It's study week. And the GRAND FINALE is just a few days away. 


It signifies the end of the semester. So boys and girls, I spent the first semester of my second year of campus life for about 4 months. For those who read this while at the same time having the same fate with me, studying like a zombie for the final exam, let's spend some time for this. What have you done for these 4 months? Is the coming holiday made you extremely excited that you finally able to leave this HAUNTED PLACE where those entangling ghost who named LECTURERS and spooky dirty things which called MID TERMS, QUIZ, LECTURES, ADDITIONAL CLASSES and FINAL EXAM? Or, are you really happy with yourself that you spent a meaningful semester in your place with your love, with your friends, visited some interesting places where you never been there before? 

So there will be two types of reaction when you are sitting in the plane, flying back to home.(Or riding in the car, on the bumpy road, heading to home)

The first. "PHEWWWW!!! Finally came to the end!!!"

Or the second. "HMMMM!!!! Why it just came to an end?!!!"


And mine, will be the second. (To be honest, I will shout the first when I was released from the exam hall)


I seen through many kinds of different things during the semester. And I am so glad that I see them, and I seen them. It seems like I am more and more qualified to be categorized in the group of high EQ, since I was out of my own law, to persevere something I never tried before (Although those SWEET damn things well deserved the curse and I did it in my heart  =P). I was so surprisingly found that I was able to control my emotion in a right way, on a right time. Good. Applause to me myself. 


And I visited somme interesting places that are so famous as the tourism hotspot. I am thankful because I was able to see the beauty of some natural places in my own country. And the very lovely Mother Nature. Breathing the fresh and sweet air, standing in the fresh and cold wind that was so refreshing, so rejuvenating, so touched, and so quiet. The silence inside, besides the melody of the heartbeat. I started to love the place, since it was under the same name shared with that of my hometown country, yet so different.


And this is 10:13 pm, I am still sitting in front of the cold screen, reviewing those warm scenes playing in my mind, reminding me how grateful that I am able to spend this semester with those who loved me, and who I loved. I still set those Human Nutrition and Food Chemistry's slides aside. 

Changing a new living environment, from the hostel to that out of the school compound, I learned to understand more about independence, and too, out of my habits, out of my surprise, I am able to walk back and forth the school almost everyday! It's not a short route, yet not a long way to go. BUT, still, it is tiring. And I walked!! I walked almost everyday!!! 

Life is a long way journey. To see different things, you must take the different path, although in the same old, you are heading for the same destination. Views do change. And those people you met, do changing too. =)


And to pass one of the subject, I was grouped with 10 other classmates, to set up a business, to run it for two days!!! Thanks to my strong throat, that able to let me stand for two days, shouting non stop, talking non stop! And I was so so so happy and thankful that, I handled and ran a big hand of money without any mistake for at least two months!! It was not the first time for me to do a stall business anyway, but it was a brand new experience for me to do it with those members that were not chosen by me myself, and I was so happy inside to know about the real being of some members. Congrats to the girls, who run under the sun, who shout in the crowd of people, who did their best in promoting the things. I appreciate every drop of those sweats, the signs of the efforts. =)


People are practical in front of money, power and face problem. But truly I seen some and they always remind me that, those pride are being built, not by the money, but by how you treat those efforts you paid, and those efforts people paid. =)

For the starting of the semester, out of the surprise, I want to generate those uncountable thanks to someone that gave me a helping hand, when I was in need. Thank you girl (you know who you are), willingly to share you bed with me when I was facing the problem of accommodation. It was been extremely hard for you, I know, to share one single bed with me, and your place, your table, and I made your life to be quite hard during the time. You have been so kind to me that you even keep me with you so that I was not in the need to sleep at the bus stop. And thank you girl (you know who you are too), to immediately informed me about the empty place in your room so that I can jeopardized it so well and so nice. Thanks for the caring. I won't forget those laughs we laugh, those crazy craps we talked, those foods we cooked, those clothes we washed, all in together. Thank you girls (you should know who you are), who accompanying me along the way, no matter those hours we spent in the school, in the outings, in the hunting of nice food, in the KTV, in crapping all the way in FACEBOOK, in everything that we had together, in paying attention to my health, in giving me encouragements, in accompanying to put off the raging flames that burnt within me when unfairness stroke. Those loves paid by all of you, I repay you with my all my heart too, and endless appreciations.


Thank you the one (you absolutely know who you are), for siding me when I unfairness stroke, when I need a channel to let off all the angers within me, for comforting me during those times where I felt so helpless and lonely. You have been so patience towards this sicked patient where her heart was being hurt. There's a way to tell you the way that I appreciated you in my life, that
is, FORGET the bites (Hereby you may bang your head to the wall if you don't know who you are).


This is 10:27 pm and I haven't finish and don't want to finish too, to write and to type. Do bear for a little while Food Analysis and Japanese lecture notes. Here comes my sweetest family. Thank you Daddy and Mummy. Deep in my heart I knew that you loved me much, and same do I. I want to be he daughter who can always make you proud of yourself, proud of your loves towards this girl, proud of your efforts to educate her, to bring her to this journey of heading to another level of her life. You are the best in my life. I love you much my daddy and my mummy. I prayed, and I wish for your longevity, so that one day I am holding your hands to tour around the world, to those places that you looked forward for the whole life. 


Thank you dear sisters, for the caring, bearing, crazing, and concerning about your little sis. I know well that I deserved all the loves from you since I am the cutest, the kindest, the most awesome, the well-talented, the sweetest, and the one who always make you laugh and happy!! =P So please continue to shower me with love (I don't mind they are in moneytary form anyway), and I know I will suffocate without you girls! (Of course I will  XP) And too the ABOUT-TO-BE-BROTHER-IN-LAW, I know I have the rights to be loved by you too other than my sis, since I may been the most interesting person in your life!! Love me with all your heart please (oooopsss, it should be my ABOUT-TO-MARRY sis)!   =D


I hope I won't be bashed to hell when they read this. But this is just the way that I loved people around me. 


So I do bucked up, and I will buck up, to be a responsible CORPSE, but at the same time, to be a student, who learns, who enjoys, who does her best, who tries the new challenges, and who flexible in every walks of life!!! 

And this is 23:00 pm, and I am about the publish the post. Going back to the Nutritions, the Accounting, the Food, the Language.


I enjoyed my semester well. Have you?


=)


P.S.: New Year is just around the corner. Happy New Year!!! Trust me, 2012 will not be the ending of the world, but a brand new start to those HAPPY AND LUCKY PEOPLE!!! yayyyyyyy!!!!

朋友，我们共勉之。

送給你，朋友。。

不想承認，不想看清，不想看透，不想識破，

但，這就是心痛的感覺啊。

原來，武裝的堅強下面，那個心碎是那麼地不堪一擊；

原來，偽裝的歡笑裏面，那股自尊是那麼低微不足道；

原來，一切就是一場夢，就算再美，醒來了，一切就回到了原點。

原來，我們，都那麼不捨。

你試圖在他的掌心上，寫上自己的名字，

他卻狠狠地把你推開，

拋下你的真心，打碎你的尊嚴，沒收你的勇氣，

而留給你的，就只有四個殘忍至極的字--《一廂情願》。

而你滿地找回那些新的碎片，還默默拼湊《自作多情》的拼圖，

擁抱自己的無助，還原自己最不想掉下的眼淚。

殊不知那所謂的一廂情願有多麼地高貴！

殊不知拿所謂的自作多情有多麼地真誠！

在他冷漠地轉身之後，他留給你的，是追得到，但捉不著的背影。

他偶爾回頭，給你一記莫須的微笑，

你殘忍地吞噬自己的委屈，追逐著他捉摸不定的影子。

日出到了，你被刺眼的陽光刺傷也在所不惜，

日落來了，你被消失的無影無蹤的影子困在黑暗里也毫無懼怕，

就只希望，他能回過頭來，看看你。

但殊不知，你已用力，狠狠地在自己的心上，

一筆，一筆地畫上他的名字，抹，也抹不掉。

當他的寬容來到了最後一分鐘，你對自己說要放手，

你還來不及鬆開你的指頭，

他卻用力地將你推開，

讓你跌個粉身碎骨，讓你跌個措手不及。

但，心的痛，才是最致命的痛。

你軟弱無助地決定振作，但身邊的人都鄙視你的堅強，

你傷痕累累地向人求救，但身邊的人都冷眼相向，

只有你自己，添自己的傷口，嘗到滿口的腥甜，

才徒然清醒。

原來，我們都在等待，等待一個沒有回報的答案。

原來，我們都在等待，等待一個別人都當成理所當然的真心。

原來，我們還在期待，期待一個到最後只讓我們更絕望的等待。

原來，一切，都是我們的自以為。

不敢再奢望，因為我們連僅有的希望到了最後都被通通殲滅，

不敢再期盼，因為我們連僅剩的勇氣到了最後留都必須留給自己，

來為下一次，還有下下一次振作。

原來，我們，都那麼可悲。

到了最後，我們笑了。

因為我們學會了，明白了，成長了，包容了，

自己，學會愛自己了。

而你，是時候抹去那一道漂亮的疤痕，是時候擦去幹掉的淚跡，

重生之後，打開心房，再一次，讓珍惜這顆脆弱的心房的他，

走進來。

加油吧，我的朋友。

祝福你。