walk out.

To set one's mind free about every single annoying nerve, 
one should free himself from his place, and catch a fresh breath,
give himself a new break. 

I am not a him, but I did set myself free from the old place, for a short break. 

I promised myself for a single trip without anyone in companion. 
But I just woke up late in the afternoon everytime, and the trip was forced to cancelled. 
For today, I made myself for it. 
A single trip, stop wherever I wanted to stop, eat those I wanted to eat. 
And I just felt a big relax and the real STOP for myself.  

To flee for a glance is not a mistake, nor a shame, 
you have a free rein to think that how you're going to redeem yourself from the cliff that you are going to fall, 
But if you are fleeing just to make yourself a bigger space to run away from those you're facing, 
YOU ARE IN A BIG SHAME. 


So it is not a marvelous walk out from home, 
just to a simple shopping mall, 
walking around, seeing all around, and eating around. 
I was full, too full to move, after stuffing all kinds of favorite food into a bag-shaped muscular organ.
I was full, too full to think, after strolling in the bookshop and finish browsing those books that I longing to read. 
I was full, too full to feel, after an icy cold ice cream cone on my finger is stingling pain after all and I rushed to finish that. 


But my heart, seems like still lack of something else, to fill an empty corner. 


Everything will just get back to the original position at the moment I stepped back to the original place that I belonged.
Everyone will still be the same old when I get back to them. 
The problem was still there. 
I.... still can't ran away from the problems, like I did in my single trip. 
But I am no longer afraid to face it, and I know I will face it, 
and everything is going to be alright again. 

Soon, I will walk out from the situation,
I will see the desired happiness.