Christmas, Merry?

Let me catch a breath for a long, continuing sigh before I start anything here. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ... It was so annoying and boring to me. I don't know how should I start to describe for the day, and why I am so MOODY and WINDY now, but I was being drowned by this kind of feeling since the day starts. Who can resuscitate me please? 

Well, I was so excited for a joyful day's arrangement after thinking and planning my DEAR CHRISTMAS SCHEDULE after the whole night long, yet NOT ANY OF THEM IS COMING ON MY DAY. So the STUPID and the SILLY girl sat in front of the piano, consoling herself with some sad, and LONELY tunes, facing the boring black and white keys. They were just seems to be WELL-ARRANGED, yet they were CARRYING THE VERY COMPLEX THEORIES AND MEANINGS. So I almost stuck my head on my DEAREST BLACKIE (He's my pretty and charming upright piano) for the whole afternoon. Grateful towards the HEAVEN, because he gave me a whole noon's pouring rain, and unstoppable wind, which made me almost tremble for that. Stressing up my loneliness HUH? GOOD.

Amazing. How could I bear such boring and lonely day without doing anything that will a youngster normal done in such a special and nice greetings season, and tends to be so CALM for jotting every single piece of my mood in here. AMAZING IS IT? Should I even need to praise the things around me for giving me such NICE, WARM GIFTS for accompanying my Christmas? This is not the GRACE given to me, although I am so appreciative towards it. 

Tonight, I had been stood up by people for two times. Here gone my KOREAN MEALS. Here gone my Karaoke sessions. Here comes the irritation after I have trusted and believed in every single empty promise. Here comes the moody. What a SUCKS Christmas that I have ever had. 

Nothing more. I am just grudging. I have nothing to do left. So I am facing myself again. 

Hong Kong Drama that really drives me crazy filled my day.

Self-manicure and pedicure sessions consoled the other half empty space in my heart chamber, where bloods are running quite cold there. 

I done nothing and suddenly, I felt so numb for this kind of feeling. It is due to the excess amounts of BORING and SAD synapses secreted for blocking my brain out. THE BRAIN IS FREEZED OUT. 

Leopard spots appeared on my fingers and toes nails now. 

I tried in playing "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars and "Kissing you" by Miranda Cosgrove today. And a little while of Yiruma, her River Flows in You. 

Writing my beloved novel again, where ideas were so hard to be squeezed through brain's nerves after I had an emergency saving on my ears from becoming a DEAF.

A dinner cum family gathering session in a SO-CALLED restaurant during the night. 

The Korea Meals arrangement was canceled. Because someone is late for home.

The Karaoke Session was canceled. Because I was forbidden by MUM and DAD, and NOBODY was going to bring me for that. So I gave up, and returned to the HONG KONG DRAMA session.


Nothing more.


SEE HOW BORING AND WINDY I AM FOR THE CHRISTMAS.