Bye 2010, Hello 2011.

31 December 2010. The last day to bid the farewell to the year of 2010, and open my arms to hug the year of 2011. So what have I done in the year of 2010? Frankly speaking, it does really eats me times to review on it, because I was doing nothing MEANINGFUL in the year. XD

I wasted a half year's time, wandering around in my home without any purpose to enjoy my BIG, GREAT, and MEANINGLESS holiday. Watching the online TV, dramas, movies became a part of my daily routine. So I started to watching it, non-stop and MARATHON-LIKE in front of my laptop, and that's my days. Eating, Sleeping, and Hanging out rarely with my friends perhaps for movie sessions and sometimes, BIG TREATS to myself with SECRET RECIPES' CHEESE CAKES, SUSHI and other else. Everything is just going on without any arrangement, purpose, and target. For the year, I used to be asked by my friends that, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BY ENTRAPPING YOURSELF IN HOME?" Honestly, I was quite enjoyed in that kind of life.  XD  

During the so-long and boring days without any pressure of works and any other else that will make me so annoyed, I fulfilled one of my wish--WRITING A NOVEL. That was the very first try for me, but I was so happy and consoled when I started to find that there were bunches of people actually, like my story and love the presentation of the novel. I never expect it will be read through, but, OUT OF MY SURPRISE, I received a lot of supports and encouragements from that, and the most luckily, I met a big bunch of friends from different places and countries because of that. I was really appreciating it. I posted it in a forum-like space, where fans involved themselves in the space, and it was really a very memorable period for me when I renew my story day-by-day. 

The days keep continue. It ends by a notice, called THE UNIVERSITY CALLING LETTER. I was so surprised that I caught a chance to enter into the university, and an ENORMOUS surprise when my name was enlisted in the UNIVERSITY OF SABAH. So I left home 2 weeks after the notice, and spent up 2 months before the first short break occurred. OKAY!! I changed every IMPOSSIBLE to become POSSIBLE. I was forced to be independent, and I tried hard to stand up whenever nostalgia was killing me. Everything was IMPOSSIBLE at the beginning, BUT I was not defeated by it, and luckily, I was so lucky that I met up a big bunch of new friends. Thanks for being there for me when I need you all. 

4 days later, I will head back to my campus again for the beginning of new semester. Thanks everything, every single arrangement and path that the DEAR GOD make for me, I will work hard for my life, AS WHAT I HAD PROMISED TO MYSELF. Thanks for being there for me always, Thanks for giving me the strength, and Thanks for always preventing me for being led to the astray. THANKS for everything that I owned up today, and I was really appreciative towards it. 

31 DECEMBER 2010. Goodbye, and HELLO, 2011.

The new beginning of the year, as well as the new beginning of a BRAND-NEW self. BUCK UP KEE!!

If you think you can, you can.

我看《罗辑课》。

一本罗志祥与他妈妈携手合作出品的书。

不要怀疑，我也不怕承认，会支持这本书的原因，90%都是因为那个作者。

这就是，这么肤浅的我。  :P

12月27号，我买到这本书了。一个晚上的时间，我读完了。（其实我读到凌晨三点。）

读完之后，很喜欢，绝对不是因为那个作者是罗志祥的原因，

而是让我受用一生的24个街头智慧。

事先声明，除了我说明出处的句子，其他的，都是出自于我的金玉良言。   XD

不要让别人看不起，要让别人知道你吃什么米。 （罗辑课：Lesson 2）

我不会怪你现在头顶上冒出来的问号，因为其实我也不明白。

道理其实很简单。

贫穷不是病，自卑才要任命。

光明正大地让人知道你在吃什么，吃什么等级的米，

就算你吃的是烂米，不是什么上等的佳肴，

只要你不偷，你不抢，就算你吃的不实什么好东西，

你在别人的面前也可以把头抬得比别人高，说话也比别人大声。

不要用跳的拿东西，因为跳得越高，掉下来的重力越大。（罗辑课：Lesson 3）

我遇到了一些很真实的例子。

勇气很大，眼光很高，胆量很大，野心很大，但是呢，我还没有看见他成功。

或许你曾经觉得你要力求突破，你要勇敢做一些与众不同的尝试，

但是其实这个道理，是一个小婴儿都会的道理。

按部就班，脚踏实地，不要强拿自己实力拿不到的东西，这才是人前进最好的办法。

为什么大家都很容易忘记这个道理？

因为大家都想做强者。

如果有一天你成功了，你可以很骄傲地大笑，觉得你站在顶峰的位置说很大声地话，

那是因为，你还没有掉下来。

只有从低处小心翼翼慢慢往上爬的人，才会看清楚，沿途荆棘密布的风景。

你懂了吗？

要一直往前走，擦掉眼泪，继续往前，因为逃避只会让痛苦更放大。（罗辑课：Lesson 10）

这句话套在我身上最适合，因为我总是因为一点点地小事大哭特哭。

哭完就睡，逃到梦境里面，然后醒来之后的第一件事情，就是后悔自己没有好好解决。

好吧！我不敢说自己一直都是那么地勇敢，

但是说真的，人生到了第20个年关，我自认自己没有做了什么很伟大的事情。

读书也还可以，人生的精彩度也还可以，什么事情都还可以，

看到这一句话的时候最多感触。

纪杰莹，你什么都还可以，到底有没有一样是你最在行的啊？！

答案是：嗯。。。好像没有耶。 XD

还可以就把她变成很行啊！再不可以就继续研究继续钻研，一定可以的啊对不对？

为什么不可以？因为我一直都在原地踏步，没有前进。

一点点压力就哭，一点点小事不如意又哭，一点点沮丧还是哭，

结果呢？眼泪永远擦不完。

如果你也跟我一样，清下定决心要彻底改变，

下次狠狠地哭，痛快地哭，哭完把眼泪擦干，然后大步向前迈去！

下一回合马上开始！

“还没死吗？还没死就马上站起来，准备打下一场的拳击赛！”（罗辑课：Lesson 24）

我就是喜欢这么夸张的讲法，不然显示不出严重性。   XD

其实这是个简单易懂的道理，但是我永远都会把它忘记。

讲明一点，就是因为我这个人，很容易因为眼前一瞬间的成功沾沾自喜。

结果？我永远就只有那么一小步的成功，然后眼睁睁地看别人强于更强。

不要做一个容易抱怨，容易放弃的人，

只要你还站在舞台上的一天，你就是玩家。

站起来，跟他拼了！

每个人都是你的老师，懂得欣赏别人的人，一定也被别人欣赏。（罗辑课：Lesson 23）

问题是，我很欣赏别人啊，好像欣赏我的人没几个。  :P

所以说，我这种千里马要遇到伯乐。（原谅我的不要脸  XD）

从每一个人的身上学习东西，因为每一个人都可以为你上一堂宝贵的课。

如果你觉得他很棒很好，当然，吸取他身上的优点，然后做每一件事情之前，细细想想这些道理，你也要像他一样被人喜欢，被人觉得你很棒；

如果你很讨厌他，那你更要长大你的眼睛看清楚，看看他为什么令人讨厌，做每一件事情，说没一句话之前想清楚，千万不要像他一样被人讨厌。

所以不管是谁，每一个人，都是你的老师。

从不同的人身上学不同的东西，这，绝对不是因为你进了一所出名的大学就能学到的。

我分享了5个街头智慧。

不需要读过很多书，不需要很高学历，就可以写得出这些人生大道理，然后用这些受用一生的智慧来教导她的孩子，这个人就是—罗妈妈。

很高深的道理，但是她学历停在小学二年级。

我呢？20岁了，大学一年级，还不明白。

不过他真的是受用一生的书，我不想放进书柜里面，

而是随身带着它，翻翻看看，一定能丰富我的人生。

（当然，因为里面不只有宝贵的大道理，还有罗志祥的帅照。   XD）

好书一本。

24个罗妈妈教我的街头智慧。

很好用，很管用。

封面。可以告诉我他的眼镜在哪买吗？

很有feel的一页。

把图片放大来看，每一堂课上完之后就会出现罗妈妈说的道理。

这一张图里面的罗志祥，长得真的很像林志颖。

他从沟渠口爬出来，因为《英雄不怕出声低》。

Christmas, Merry?

Let me catch a breath for a long, continuing sigh before I start anything here. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ... It was so annoying and boring to me. I don't know how should I start to describe for the day, and why I am so MOODY and WINDY now, but I was being drowned by this kind of feeling since the day starts. Who can resuscitate me please? 

Well, I was so excited for a joyful day's arrangement after thinking and planning my DEAR CHRISTMAS SCHEDULE after the whole night long, yet NOT ANY OF THEM IS COMING ON MY DAY. So the STUPID and the SILLY girl sat in front of the piano, consoling herself with some sad, and LONELY tunes, facing the boring black and white keys. They were just seems to be WELL-ARRANGED, yet they were CARRYING THE VERY COMPLEX THEORIES AND MEANINGS. So I almost stuck my head on my DEAREST BLACKIE (He's my pretty and charming upright piano) for the whole afternoon. Grateful towards the HEAVEN, because he gave me a whole noon's pouring rain, and unstoppable wind, which made me almost tremble for that. Stressing up my loneliness HUH? GOOD.

Amazing. How could I bear such boring and lonely day without doing anything that will a youngster normal done in such a special and nice greetings season, and tends to be so CALM for jotting every single piece of my mood in here. AMAZING IS IT? Should I even need to praise the things around me for giving me such NICE, WARM GIFTS for accompanying my Christmas? This is not the GRACE given to me, although I am so appreciative towards it. 

Tonight, I had been stood up by people for two times. Here gone my KOREAN MEALS. Here gone my Karaoke sessions. Here comes the irritation after I have trusted and believed in every single empty promise. Here comes the moody. What a SUCKS Christmas that I have ever had. 

Nothing more. I am just grudging. I have nothing to do left. So I am facing myself again. 

Hong Kong Drama that really drives me crazy filled my day.

Self-manicure and pedicure sessions consoled the other half empty space in my heart chamber, where bloods are running quite cold there. 

I done nothing and suddenly, I felt so numb for this kind of feeling. It is due to the excess amounts of BORING and SAD synapses secreted for blocking my brain out. THE BRAIN IS FREEZED OUT. 

Leopard spots appeared on my fingers and toes nails now. 

I tried in playing "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars and "Kissing you" by Miranda Cosgrove today. And a little while of Yiruma, her River Flows in You. 

Writing my beloved novel again, where ideas were so hard to be squeezed through brain's nerves after I had an emergency saving on my ears from becoming a DEAF.

A dinner cum family gathering session in a SO-CALLED restaurant during the night. 

The Korea Meals arrangement was canceled. Because someone is late for home.

The Karaoke Session was canceled. Because I was forbidden by MUM and DAD, and NOBODY was going to bring me for that. So I gave up, and returned to the HONG KONG DRAMA session.


Nothing more.


SEE HOW BORING AND WINDY I AM FOR THE CHRISTMAS.

MerRy ChRisTmaSS!!

Hi blog!! It has been a long time since the last renewal on my mood, my affairs and my recent moves. Well, I feels just GREAT and NICE staying in my warm, jovial home for the break, for the holiday, with troupes of dearest FAMILY, and FRIENDS around. Thanks for granting every wish of me. I am so appreciative towards everything that I am owning up. 

So, how does a LONELY GIRL celebrates and enjoys her LONELY but SO-SPECIAL CHRISTMAS EVE? Well, there is nothing to be afraid of, AND, I admit that, THIS IS MY 20'S LONELY CHRISTMAS without anyone to hold my hands up, ROMANTIC CANDLE-LIT DINNER, guy who can stay by my side, lend me a great shoulder, and count the shooting stars together and get me shower in all gentle whispers, YET, friends, are really catalyzing up the atmosphere of  Christmas around me, and of course, I am so glad to have a special, and happy Christmas.

I am going to describe the whole process now, forgive me to do that, but I just want to make some remarks on such joyful day. XD Actually everything was just simple, easy, BUT meaningful to me. I was ganged up with my MISS DAR (Excuse me, I am not belonged to the family whose names starts from L, but my MISS DAR was one of my BEST friend ever) to have a big, great hanging in JB. We spent our great, and crazy 3 hours in the Karaoke lounge where we nodded our heads down to the coarse throat eventually, and gave up on mics before the service crews kicked us out from the lounge. XD 

So these two silly girls were wandering around the toys shop like a SO-NAIVE children, touching and hugging every soft toys they were ever wanted to, and scrammed out from the shop after that. XD  Today, I brought my MISS DAR to make some changes on herself, which have never been tried by her before in her 20's years of life. (Excuse me again, I am not leading her to astray, but just glad and happy to see some little changes on this pretty little girl, to boast up her confidence and coverage. I used to a big and nice SAMARITAN.  XD)  So I suggested her to have a pair of contact lens as the first step not long ago, and I brought her to buy some cosmetic products, which can add up the attractiveness of eyes. I was so happy actually, that I could see the joy in her eyes when she was making the payment for the mascara, eyeliner and so on. My MISS DAR, I am looking for ward on seeing a PRETTY and GORGEOUS GIRL next time, when you appears in front of me. Hope that I can always be true, OK?


So these twp stupid girls came to the J.Co Donuts again, and staring on the yogurt ice-cream's advertising board. Guess which set we have ordered? COUPLE SET, where 3 toppings' choices were available. So this SO-MEAN couple choose their toppings so happily, and easily, without hesitation, spick and span. XDXD  We chose a seat after that, and the CRAZY SHOOTING SESSION, starts.

Okay! Shooting on the empty bowl with two crossed spoons. I was quite lame for that. XDXD

Tasty and sweet ice-cream, melts the COLD and LONELY HEART in LONELY CHRISTMAS. XD

Thy are definitely VERY BERRY STRAWBERRY!

The piece of shoot I love the MOST!!!!

XDXD  The poses were almost the same, but we were getting excited and excited for the shooting, and it was unstoppable, until we saw the cashier man was peeping us with kind of weird and haunty looks. XDXD  So the day ends with the crazy photo shooting. I love every single piece of photo, they remind me of how blessed I am to own a Blissful family, warm friends, and AT LEAST, I am not alone in the Chrstmas! 


Thanks for being there for me everyone. I am not a Christian anyway, but still, I am grabbing every single chance to make wishes. XDXD. So, the Grand-Pa Santa Claus, can you please granted me three wishes? (I am not going to hang up the socks out of my window, and ask for the presents and candies, but 3 wishes please, don't be stingy OK?)


1. I hope that all my dearest family members and my warmest friends, MAY YOU STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY ALWAYS in every moment, where cheers and laughs are surrounding you guys all the time, MAY GOD ALWAYS BLESS ON YOU, and all the BEST!


2. I hope that I can achieve what I WANT in the following year, I don't need empty promises and vows, which i have made to me myself, but I have to achieve it,  pursue it! I am going to challenge myself for that, and I PROMISED, I won't give up, and I won't be defeated.


3. It is just a small and tiny hope, though I think the possibility for the 3rd wish for coming true is 0.0000000000000000000001, (Infinity is a better word to numerize it), which is, I hope it will be not LONELY CHRISTMAS for me on next year. XDXD  Impossible, right? (So Santa, I am not going to make you difficult. Thanks a lots for making my 1st and 2nd wishes to be true).   XD

Okay, 4.37 am now, I am still typing some words to express my joy, so may everybody showered in the sounds of bless, in the season of greetings, and MERRY CHRISTMAS! HOHOHOHO!!!

WRITING. I LOVE IT.

It feels good to write something. WRITING. Composing something that can be named by my own, and really feels good. I am so happy now to burn the midnight oil, not rushing and dashing for the so-called EXAMINATION, or TEST, but enjoying and overwhelming in writing and raking up my story. I am not good writer perhaps, but it feels just NICE and MARVELOUS when I am sharing all my ideas, using up all my creativity, and everything running in my brain. Through the characters that I raked out, through the words, through the readers, and through the impulse to continue writing even I was in the half-way to do something else. I am SO SO SO enjoyed to have that. THANKS for the holiday, THANKS for the platform for me to post out my second story script, and THANKS to all of my readers, my DEAR readers, I never ever thought that my first try will achieve such an absolute result, to me, it is the biggest encouragement and consolation, since all of YOU, AND YOU enjoyed in my story. THANKS again for all the comments, which contribute to the raking of the story, and generation of ideas.

I am not BRAIN-STORMING, but I am BRAIN-TORNADO-ING. XDXD Perhaps later, I will undergo the BRAIN-VOLCANO-ERUPTING. XDXD

But it is nice to squeeze out all my ideas through that. I just love to write. So what if i didn't write well? So what if I received any unpleasurized comments? So what if I left no readers? 

IT'S ALL RIGHT. JUST ALL RIGHT. 

As long as I am writing it, for myself. Nobody else, BUT MYSELF. Thanks for the appreciation. I appreciate you guys too. The story, will be continued, on and ON......