tHe oNe anD OnLy. I loVE You MUM!!

This is the only picture that I have taken with my dearest mum, as she doesn’t like to look into the camera, enjoying the flashing lights. So the picture actually, aged 5 months, when I was about to leave the sweet home, and the venue of the picture was located in the Senai International Airport, Johor. I smiled as happily as I could, but actually, I was not. I was actually keep all the tears from falling, as I have cried a big heart out before I departed from my home, and listening to all persuades, and reminds from mum along the way to the airport. 

FAMILY, THE ONE AND ONLY. I APPRECIATE IT.

She asked me to take good care of myself. She asked me to be careful with everything in a new and unfamiliar place. She asked me to buy anything when I am in needs, and never be worried about the prices and all other factors. She asked me to call home immediately whatever happened on me. She asked me to go back home if I can’t live up myself in the place. She asked me not to care about the monetary problems, and just spend anything as I like in the new place. She asked me to have good meals as she knows that I enjoyed eating special and nice food. BUT, SHE NEEVER ASKED ME TO SPARE A THOUGHT FOR HER, FOR THE FAMILY. That’s what I felt guilty, and so touched.

She used to ask me to learn to do all the household chores, as I used to be a lazy bum in the house. She used to nag on me, while I lost my purse, and misplacing everything that I used in the house. She used to scold and told me off when I bought anything that was due to the entertainment purposes. She used to nag on me while I spent my BIG 6 months in the house, hanging around, and doing nothing. She used to tell my siblings that I can’t survive in a new place. She used to persuade me to have some monetary sense, and spend wisely. She used to tell me off when she knows I spent a big hand of money on having good and nice food. BUT, SHE NEVER USED TO THINK THAT I AM JUST A USELESS BUM IN THE FAMILY, although I thought I am.

5 months. Living alone. What surround me are, NEW CHALLENGES, FRIENDS, and LONELINESS. I still remember how hard I cried every time when dad or mum called, and how I wished I could fly back home immediately, giving up everything after I struggling for my 2 years of STPM. But, I know I can’t. I shouldn’t give up so easily for these sucks and minor problems. I WANT TO BE THE PROUD OF FAMILY, AS I AM PROUD OF MY FAMILY. I don’t have a so-rich and wealthy dad, who can have a troupes of maids to serve and treat me as a princess, BUT I AM A PRINCESS IN HIS EYES. He is just a driving instructor, who earns a limited pay every month, yet be so righteous and rationale in every acts he acts. I don’t have a so-gorgeous mother, who can always hanging out with a branded car, branded handbags, and have a cupboards of well dresses, BUT SHE IS THE MOST GORGEOUS AND PRETTIEST WOMAN THAT I HAVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE. She don’t even owned a single piece of nice dress, branded bag or that, in fact, she just behaves like the more than ordinary housewife, but, everything she did for the family, is what I can’t ever find in others’ hands. She cooked a table of nice dishes, and doing every single piece of household chores in law, being a very classical and nice-behaved housewife. SO WHAT EVEN SHE REACHED A LOW EDUCATION STANDARD? I am proud of her as well.

Take a deep breath. Now, I know what I should tell my dearest father and mother as I have detached from the place to raise me up for 20 years.

Dear mummy and daddy,

Thanks for everything that I owned up today. You used to nag around me for my bad habits, and when I changed to a new place, and only I realized that I am SO DESERVE IT for learning nothing. I am taking a good care of myself here, so please don’t worry about me. I MISS YOU ALL THE TIME!! I know you never expect that your daughter, this useless and lazy daughter, who only knows how to eat and sleep, and facing laptops all the day once she opened her eyes in the morning, Oh no, is in the noon times, can manage to learn all kinds of chores that she never used to done before! I learnt to do the laundry by myself, I learnt to clean up my place, I learnt everything, and be the new-self. And for the most incredible, I can even whip a meal for myself! I REALLY MISS THE DAYS WHEN I WAS AT HOME, WHICH I NEVER BE APPRECIATIVE OF IT, but now, I know it’s the time for me to learn to be independent, and learn from the start. I learn to manage my temper too, as what out of your expectations. XD I know it is not so easy to be my old-self, as I used to be so hot-tempered and bad-tempered. It’s time for me to change, and I am ON MY WAY to learn. I am living up in a well manner here, though sometimes I will meet some problems, AND definitely it’s the time for me to MISS THE HOME SO MUCH, as you guys are so well prepared and ready to listen to me anytime. I am doing my best for the final exam in this semester, although I don’t know what will be result in all my efforts. I will do my best not to disappoint you, and rest assure, don’t worry, I will behave myself here. Don’t worry for the factors that will lead me astray, such as falling in a relationship or somewhat, I know what I am doing actually. (Actually, this is due to no pursuer. XDXDXDXD)  I know my purpose to be here, so I will behave like a student. So mum, and dad, please take good care of yourself too okay? I wil work hard for my life, study hard, work hard, earn hard, and one day, I promised to bring you guys to anywhere you want, okay? It’s haven’t reach the time for me to have a good enjoyment and filial to you, so please, BE HEALTHY AND HAPPY ALWAYS YA! I love you guys so much, so for my sake, stay healthy, and happy!! I promised, I will bring you guys to come here, for where I stand, AND, I will make you proud of me, looking ME, THE DAUGHTER OF KEE, stand up in the stage, receiving my degree’s certificate, with the graduate robe. I WILL WORK HARD FOR THE DAY, and, the most important thing is, I LOVE YOU!!!!