kEe'S

I got the marks for my mid-term today. INCREDIBLY, TERRIBLE. It spoilt my mood up indeed. Once a moment, I really don’t know what should be run into my mind, and of course, I was held in the atmosphere of stucked, and strucked. How should I describe this kind of feeling? My conclusion is, I DESERVED IT WELL. Who asks me not to put more efforts during the exam? Who asks me to underestimate the exam? Who asks me to put my focus on those rubbish, and neglected what should come first? I was not born as a GENIUS, whose interpretation can be 100% efficient, but in fact, I have to work up 10 times, or even 100 hundred times harder than the rest, not to exceed them, but just to stand and sit with them as the same level. But, what I missed out is, I missed the chance to sit for the mid-term again!

Should I be sad? Or should I be mad on myself? I don’t know. It’s complicated anyway. I failed to manage my time distribution, my time management, and the fact was that, I SLEPT TOO MUCH! I was just fed up with the lazy, sleepy tiny receptors that makes me feels doze up always, and fail to persuade myself up to wake up earlier in the morning, just for the CHEMISTRY, FOOD SCIENCE, TITAS, MATHEMATICS and so subjects’ sakes. So I performed sucks in my mid-term. THIS IS WHAT A LAZY BUM DESERVES. No blaming on anyone please.

It’s time to sleep less and step in the pedal to dash forward. I am telling myself in this way. Perhaps it is more like persuading, and convincing myself like that. If I was born to be a stupid and 0 IQ, I should be bended to the fact. But the fact is, I AM NOT! Nobody should claim himself or herself as IDIOT. Bang on the wall immediately if the mind come cross your head. SO THIS IS WHAT THE WAY YOU ARE INSULTING WHAT YOUR PARENTS GAVE YOU? Nobody was born to be a useless bum in this world. SO DO I. This is my careless mistakes. In fact, I shouldn’t disappoint my parent up, yes or not? This is just the starting point, and, why should I give up just because a failure? I might be chased it up, and boast it up by start working right now! There shouldn’t be excuse around anymore! I need to start right now. I know it is quite a bouncy and hard road for me to push myself into the extreme, but for my sake, for my parent’s sake, for my family’s sake, I DO. 

Allows me to spend some space for self-encouragement. I need it badly please…

WAIT UP NO MORE KEE KEAT YING! You have no time. You are wasting your precious time on doing all the craps, and spending all the time on having leisures, sleeping, dreaming and gazing, and now, who should you blame on? YOURSELF. There is no one stopping you from gaining ahead on your success, but you are just fail to gain it. You are destroying it all by yourself. YOU ARE LOSING THE CHANCE. So please fight it back. Start right now, and you still stand a chance. Or else, just bid a big farewell to the awaiting and upcoming success. Looking others, who are surrounding you with big success hugs, and you, facing the cold wall alone. No one will be sympathy on you. YOU DESERVE IT! So please, don’t let this come true. Start to gear right now! Your efforts are greatly appreciated. BUCK UP, BUCK UP, and BUCK UP, KEE KEAT YING!!!!!

P.S.: My dearest father is calling me at the time I finished my last piece of word for this. This stupid coward girl still, tearing all the time whenever the sound of parents come.  =(