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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbfeSImDntw

Addicted to the song. Live like we are dying. But before this, please allow me to spit, "TOUCHWOOD!"  XD  It has been some time since the release of the song actually, but recently I found that it was so meaningful and so nice lyrics that can actually presenting the ideas of appreciating people beside you, around you, or even just pops out in your mind in some moments. Well, I don't deny that I am paying attention to the song at first,because of KRIS ALLEN. Haha.

I shall say no more, let's look into the lyrics.

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up

We're hiding behind skin that's too tough

How come we don't say I love you enough

Until it's too late it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come

But we ould make a feast from these crumbs

And we are all staring down the barrel of a gun

So if your life flashed before you what would you wish you would have done

We gotta start

Looking at the hands of the time we've been given 

If this is all we got then we gotta start thinking 

If every second counts on the clock that is ticking

Gotta live like we're dying 

We only got

86400 seconds in a day 

To turin it all around or to throw it all away

Gotta tell them that we love them while we got the chance to say 

Gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies

Who would you call with your last goodbye

Should be so careful who we let fall out of our lives

Or when we long for absolution there will be no one on the line 

You never know a good thing until it is gone 

You never see a crash until it's head on 

Why do we think we're right when we're dead wrong

You never know a good thing until it is gone

Whewww!! Finish typing. It's turn for me to blah blah blah something. Haha. I found the lyrics of the song in a midnight actually. And it was me so down,  down and drowned. Everything is just going on its own way, and not mine, and I was totally being broken down by the failure that I have tested. TERRIBLE. I didn't know how to manage my emotion actually, and I was tolerating hard, for not letting tears to fall. IT WAS TOO MUCH TEARS BEFORE. That's what I told myself. I was hiding from the truth and I didn't want to face it. 

I can't imagine if I failed the subject. I can't imagine how will others look at me, carrying the result slip with fail marks on it. I can't imagine the disappointment shown by my parents. I JUST RUN OUT OF CALM. And, the song comes to me. And, I didn't even know why, I listened it, carefully, singly word by word. And, everything will just like being cursed and released, I WAS RELEASED FROM IT. The atmosphere was too haunty to be described.  XD

So I start to wonder, and wander. I was actually walking in the room deep out of the clock, and wandering around without a purpose in and out of the room, pretending I was busy with something, to avoid my roommates looking freakly on me.  XD  So I stopped at the corridor. Looking at the stars, and the unusual cloudy moon on the night. The rain comes. Just like what I was having during that time. Lyrics and words from the song ran into my mind unstoppable. If I failed, I am dying. SO WHY DON'T I LIVE LIKE DYING? Just throw everything into the rubbish can, and start to live myself up.GREAT!  Isn't it?     XDXDXD

Just a little prank to sooth myself up. Don't take it serious. Well, the point is that, I was still appreciating what has been obtained, a terrible mark. (THE MARK HAS NO CRAZE ME UP, ALTHOUGH THIS SOUNDS CRAZY). Actually, if can, I really have to say a deep thanks to the mark, that make me, REALIZE. Realize that I should not give up. Realize that the mistakes that I have done. Realize that it's time for me to awake. Realize that I still can hang it through if I am dashing forward now. Even though I may be banging on the walls, even though I may be bleeding hard, even though I may be fall down. BUT, I will learn to stand up again by myself,  I will learn to laugh my heart out looking at my wound, AND, dashing forward again.

Thanks for everything. Just everything. My annoying and sucks roommates. (Perhaps I should change a very nice name for them, my BEAUTIFUL roommates, XD). I learnt to tolerate, digesting every single of my mad nerve, enduring every single piece of unwanted trouble. So, just be appreciative. APPRECIATING. This is what I am having, I am learning, as well as I am adopting. ADOPTING, not ADAPTING.

For those that knows me for long, maybe they just can't control their jaws form falling on the ground, looking these words come out from my lips, with lots of UNBELIEVABLE marks above their heads. =P  Well, this is really what I learnt from the song, just be appreciating. And VALUES UP YOUR LIFE. My uni life. I was been given the chance to stepped into the door gate of the university, and I should cherish every single second and moment for it. I am so glad that I can have the chance to face to my books, and carrying the piece of card, named by STUDENT ID, my photo, and my name on it. I am so appreciative to own to be a student under the Food Science and Nutrition Program. So I should do my best. DO MY BEST! Not letting everyone, including myself, down. 

STAND UP! WAKE UP! BUCK UP!!!